The Rose

You are beautiful, but you are empty. One could not die for you.

To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you–the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing.

Because she is my rose.

- Le Petite Prince

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Opps, sorry, I am back after a state of confusion and vulnerability ;p

No understand…

I thought I would be able to come back to the dating game pretty soon.

After all, I “enjoy” playing mind games with guys.

But now I feel so tired.

Every sentence said by each guy now just reminded me of how the ex bf used to text me to initiate conversations.

During that time, whenever he sms-ed me, I’d smile. I seriously do not know what made things change. I have no idea if there’s anymore feelings left. I also do not wish to think further because I feel there’s just no light at the end of the tunnel.

As much as I love to settle down, yet I wish guys do not disturb me at the moment.

Cos I don’t think I am ready to start the get-to-know-u-try-to-fall-in-love-and-start-mind-games process.

Yet.

I ain’t pretty you know. I just love makeup.

My Love List

Have you heard of the Love List that was featured on Oprah?

Here’s mine long list teeheehee:

1.  Strong willed, confident, secured and courageous to make me believe
2.  Dependable, down to earth and matured in thinking
3.  Honest, loyal and trusting
4.  Kind hearted with a dash of child’s innocence
5.  Loves life and lives with passion
6.  Humourous and does not take jokes seriously
7.  Makes me laugh out loud 80% of the time
8.  Great chemistry that pulls me closer everytime
9.  Enjoys “little squabbling” but gives in to me ;p
10. Sensitive to my mood changes but not overly sensitive
11. Believes in constant self-improvement
12. Appreciates simplicity and tranquility in life
13. Positive outlook in life and spread the vibes to me – make the best out of what he gets in life
14. Strives in his career

離開 – 彭佳慧

如果愛
只剩負擔
我選擇離開

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不再习惯自怜
但是却渐渐坚强得让自己变得陌生
想着也许那只是一种伪装的外表

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The Course of True Love

I forgot if I mentioned this before…

When I was 19 years old, one of my friend’s friend who knew palm reading read our palms.

He said I always have difficulty getting together with the person I really like, and I will have 3 boyfriends.

Because I have always been afraid to fall in love, I always tell myself, never mind, 2 have passed (I consider break & patch to be 2x lol) so I won’t be too negative.

True enough, now number 2 has also ended. I am trying to stay positive that the next one will be true and lasting.

: )

It just feels warm to know that your right one is somewhere out there, and the Almighty one is helping you to plan for that encounter to spark everything.

: )

Has anyone read about Oprah’s Love List? Might just do that later! Hehehe….

Short Hiatus from Love :)

P.S.: This is by no way a “revenge” post : )

Finally my leave will be finished today. Made a promise to myself that I will get back the momentum at work after today.

I wish you happiness…

If I cannot make you love me.

In letting you go, we are both 1 step closer to our Ms / Mr Right.

I am reorganising my life to exclude your presence, which I had painstakingly tried to include since 4 months ago.

I came to understand that it’s all in the mind.

I knew you are not the man I am looking for.

Being in love is not just butterflies in the stomach. It is also a rational choice of staying together despite the differences and challenges.

Sorry that I could not make you love me more.

As what I had told you, I wish you happiness. And from here, I close the chapter.

Love Pink

Got this while at work at ION today

I love pink flowers.

I have never felt so happy and cheered up seeing flowers.

For once I feel like a normal girl again.

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If you believe I am too “good” to be real, then probably I am

Sometimes they say, friends may not need to speak a word, yet understood what each other wanted to say…. I totally understand how it feels..

: )

Thanks Lala for meeting up with me so impromptu-ly (hehe), and hearing me speak my mind..

Silly girl actually cried while hearing me, and ended up both of us cried at the table..

;p

Met up with some other of their friends before Lala’s bf sent us back.. I realised I had never laughed like that for so so so  long..

*contented*

I will be strong, my dear.. Thanks for your advices, they are really handy..

I will try again : )

分手的情书 – 陈伟联

“Love” or “Relationship” may be the ever most profound thing ever invented.

How is it that Love is so important for people to give up everything, to risk having hurt, and embracing another person who is just so different from us?

Although I find myself going forward, hesitating and at times moving backwards, I am glad I still have the courage to hold on and explore.

And then I realised, it is not difficult to love me. It’s just difficult to love a person.

: )

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海.. 是蓝色，
云.. 是白色，
树.. 是绿色，
花.. 是红色。
那爱情是什么颜色？

作词：林夕，作曲：陈伟联

聚要吃苦 散要受苦

我闻到你哭 那种温度
寒心得像抚摸 爱的坟墓

想到感情归宿
忘了人情事故
别为仁慈 创造残酷

眼前无路 心中有数
何必继续漫步
你该拥有更轻易的幸福
谈恋爱不是追逐难度
爱如苗圃 命如蜡烛
沿路烧到光秃
是我自私 放不下同甘共苦
也念不出分手的情书

爱值得付出 也能退出
来时紧成露珠 去若晨露
感情美得虚无 就当做身外物
不要让它 变成包袱

我本来是孤独的壁虎
你生来是掌上明珠

你的付出该换来更大满足
如果是这样 不如 不如…