Happy New Yearrrrr 2012!

2012 said hello even before I could react! Haha!

Was sick on the very last day of 2011, and was gong gong erm, drowsy as people were ushering in the brand new year!

Didn’t really have time for New Year resolution (rarely works for me though ;p), here’s a brief one though:

1. Self
A lot of times I could be very easily affected by people’s comments or words, especially those which are not true (that I think).

Sometimes people can have a very weird way of processing or defining matters, which made me wonder (or perhaps it could have been me haha!). Very often, I get very frustrated easily and I felt wronged.

During these times, I probably will just keep quiet (before I explode). And when I keep quiet, unfortunately, I look very angry.

So in 2012, I look forward to develop a humble spirit, who doesn’t explode easily at other people’s comments. Others can say what they want, but what is important is how the Father sees me from Heaven : )

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2. The Pau
The year 2012 was supposed to be the year for our wedding (as we would have planned previously). However due to some minor changes and requirements, we have to shift it to the next year, due to the wedding rush in the Year of Dragon. Hahaha.

At this moment, I would agree that we can see everyone’s inner self (probably hidden or subconscious flaws) through a wedding.

Very much as I lament about how others not care about what I want in my wedding, I probably have to just give in so everyone can be happy over this joyous occassion.

So I guess my dream wedding of a very simple and casual affair is kaput already. Hahaha.. Hafta do it the Singaporean style. But oh well, what’s more important probably is the marriage for life, not the 1 day wedding ceremony : )

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3. Work and Health
To be able to work and be on track, I have finally realised the importance of health. I rarely fall sick really bad, but I was kind of down since last Sep to the end of the year, with minor break downs here and there. Hehe.

I probably have to work out an exercise schedule with The Pau for 2012. HEHEHE!

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So there, 2012 is gonna be a blast for us! : )

No Plastick, Still Can be Pretty ;p

This morning, I happened to dig out my old old photo albums.

When I was still a teen.

HAHAHAHA.

All my life before I discovered falsies and 3M tape, I have never thought of myself being ‘presentable’.

You would know how bad it is, when I say I have no boyfriend only until I was 19. (Yes, Mr Pau is my 2nd boyfriend onlyyyyyyy. Not 5th or 7th or 10th. Thankyouverymuch.)

I think I was 17 or 18 years old. Major #Fail. About 50+kg then.
But hey, at least I have a V shaped face okay. Hahahaha ;p

In Melbourne during SIM days. Like, 22 years old?
My teeth was so much straighter then! Bad grinding habit : (

Same year. After being heartbroken made me do crazy things, like
snip off duno-how-many inches of my hair ;p

For simple comparison, here is my NOW picture:

Of course with makeup, anything is possible ;p

So when I say my eyes after makeup is about 2 or 3 times the original size, please believe it. Hehehe!

In fact, I am still not confident of my “looks” without makeup. I think during these 2 years with Mr Pau, he has only seen me with no eyelid tape like 2 or 3 times.

So….. I’m almost convinced I could do a “double eyelid makeup tutorial” already. LOL.

If You Judge, Get Ready to be Judged

Lately I have been (secretly) feeling thankful because I am trying to be a better person and I see improvements.

Although I still get frustrated easily under tight time or stress, I am trying my best to improve. And not put my own expectations onto others, esp Mr Pau.

Having the courage to admit your flaws may sound easy. But how many of us have the courage to admit to people, and improve on it?

Now we see so many people around who believes they have what it takes and with their life experience they should teach or educate others. But have you thought of, whatever you “teach” or advice on, is it what others really want?

For myself, I believe (might be as a result of Levi’s past mktg campaign) that I ain’t your 2nd chance in life. You can share but don’t expect.

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you” – Matthew 7:1

Because of the flaws I see in myself, I truly want to be a better person. But I get influenced by negativity very easily, so I’m cutting away negative sources and I truly want to believe in myself.

Of course, doing this is difficult. Esp if you are a long-time friend of mine. Sometimes I still fall into vulnerability and emotions overtake my logic.

Esp when I get to know what / how people say or think of me.

Very stupid you might say. Somehow I just get affected, esp if they are people I see everyday or are close to, or people around Mr Pau.

Because I am also afraid of comments that might affect me (negative, negative), so nowadays I turn to reading the Bible for solace.

This is when the Iphone truly come into use ;p LOL.

I find quotes or passages that are meaningful and can heal my thoughts when I am vulnerable, or feel the urge to speak bad of people, who are bad to me.

I now learnt and reinforced my thinking that 冤冤相抱 何时了. I dun need to keep speaking bad of others to people. Because I know 路遥知马力, 日久见人心.

It is exactly the existence of these people that makes me appreciate my own friends. Esp those whom I know for a long time, and keep forgiving me when I am busy with my own commitments.

Yet, they choose to believe in me and my personality.

Do you? Do you treasure these group of friends? I know I should. Because I know these friends will be here no matter what circumstances I am facing in my life.

For that, I am thankful.

Oh My Passat ;p

These few days, Mr Pau and I talked a little of our future together.

It’s quite fun to talk about your dream car, home, and kids actually (lol).

The other day we went to the VW showroom and I really love this car.

The Volkswagen Passat CC

It’s not a must to own a car. But it’s a plus, and I’d really like to drive a separate car from Mr Pau, so we’d have enough space for his family when we all go out together.

I’m feeling kinda glad that our life goals are almost similar. Makes me have the drive to work and succeed : ) Of course, which monetary is never the first priority la. Hee.

With all these aside, of course I’m super thankful to my dear friend who has introduced Mr Pau and my current work-in-progress to me (lol).

Sometimes you really do not know how life turns out for u. Expect the least, and the most would prolly happen : )

Be True to Yourself

.. be true to yourself, and be willing to not go along with the crowd.

A quote I came across a couple days ago, which I can relate very well to.

Of course not the illegal or immoral things leh ;p

Also read about, no matter what you do, there is bound to have someone disagreeing with your words or actions. So why bother?

Letting go is an art in life and I am happy to say I’m near there already, thanks to advices and patience from loved ones : )

For someone who likes to 钻牛角尖 or thinks too much, I think it’s a pretty big move already.

Bleahhh ;p Hehe.